10:50

 

It’s 10:50 at night, and I am sitting here on the computer.

I can hear Brian snoring “softly” from the living room-

he’s asleep on the couch again.

Joseph is tucked away snug in his brand new size XL Halo Sleep Sack.

The house is quiet.

So, why am I awake?

As a mother, sleep is precious.

And yet, here I sit.

Eating Crispix out of my fiercely green Anthropologie bowl.

The bowls that I originally got for Joseph.

Yet, I use them all the time.

Food looks better in brightly colored bowls, yes?

I love my husband.

I love my baby.

But time to myself is nice too.

Sometimes I have to steal it.

I am stealing it now.

Enjoying the quiet, letting my mind wander.

Did you know that I tied jingle bells to Joseph’s shoes today?

Now wherever he goes he makes an adorable (and festive) jingle jingle jangle.

Didn’t stop a lady in the mall from running smack into him.

How could you miss the adorable toddler walking…well…toddling right by you,

Jingling all the way?

What am I going to do about spring clothes for Joseph,

I should start looking into that.

What will he be like this spring/summer?

That’s a great deal on kids shoes- I should order a large size for Joseph.

No, it might be summer then and too hot.

Should I make more lemon cookies for moms group tomorrow?

How in the WORLD does Brian’s friend and his wife only spend $60 a week on groceries??!!

My house is really clean right now.

Is the Nativity safe on that shelf?

Will Joseph (Brian) throw a ball and knock something off.

I hope if something falls, it is one of the sheep.

And not Baby Jesus.

See?

How can I possibly sleep with all of these thought rattling around in my brain?

I know that I am going to regret it in the morning,

when I hear his little voice on the monitor at 5:00AM

and God doesn’t answer my prayer of

“Please Lord, let him go back to sleep!”

I. Know. That. I. Will. Regret. It.

But it is so darn peaceful.

And it is nice to be by myself.

Goodnight.

(soon)