Isaac slept through the night last night!
I can count on one hand the number of times that has happened since he grew out of his “I’m the perfect sleeper” stage at about 2 months old.
And it is amazing how good I feel!
I didn’t want to collapse while putting on-off-on-off-on-off-on-off Joseph’s batman costume!
I didn’t have to eat chocolate to survive the morning!
Well, okay, I HAVE eaten chocolate this morning, but I didn’t HAVE to eat it- you see?
This means that a thought has been a brewin’ in my head.
Maybe, maybe it is time to loosen the ole apron strings….
wait…tighten the apron strings…
tighten the purse strings… what is the saying?
In any case, what I am trying to say is that perhaps it is time for me to steer Isaac firmly into more “Independent sleep habits.”
I have never been able to let my kids “Cry it out.”
I am NOT judging you if you do it- in fact I admire you. You are a tough cookie, and I wish that I could do it too.
But hearing him cry makes me physically ill.
Sweaty, anxious, stomach in knots, I practically sprint into his room to scoop him up.
I try to tell myself, “Well, Caitlin, he is fine. It’s okay. He is just going to have to cry.”
And then the second he does what I call a three-tiered cry (not just “Waaaah” but “waaa-haaaaa-haaaaaaaaa!” ) I cave.
I snuggle, I bounce, I stroke his head, I nurse him a million times until he is finally asleep.
The other night I went to nurse Isaac when he cried at 2 AM, fell asleep (My name is Caitlin and I can sleep while someone sucks on my boob) and woke up at 4 AM to find him STILL nursing.
So, we may have a bit of a dependency issue.
From now on, I think I am going to try to be just a teensy bit tougher.
Like making him cry for 5 minutes instead of 3.
Or 4 minutes maybe.
And only letting him nurse ONCE before bed, and not over and over until he falls asleep.
Okay, fine, TWICE!
Baby steps, people! Baby steps!
All I am trying to say is that I think I am ready.
CUT the apron strings! That’s it! That is the saying!
But doesn’t that sound a bit harsh?
Let’s stick with just loosening them a little.